|на сердце грусть, на душе тоскаааа....
||[Oct. 9th, 2008|10:19 pm]
I'm heart broken.... just in case. I fell in to that Russian Canadian, who supposed to be just a benefits......And just in the moment, that I told him, that I like him.....|
Ups, I met somebody ....before I met you, and it's serious. I'm fucked up always to be second one, to be a substitute for someone else!!
And he told that he can not have sex with me, because it's serious... the only decent man I have met till then...
I drove the whole night in San Jose, trying to get drunk and get laid by someone.... I did not find anyone.. God thank you at least for that! I was not allowed to enter into the whore house, because I'm a woman!!!! and in 7AM in the morning after driving around the whole damn city, I was trying to buy an alcohol, but they told me that the LAW doesn't allow to sell the alcohol till 8AM!!!!!!!!
So, I got 2 coffees and the 4th pack of sigarettes per night and went to meet a sunrise in Escazu.
The second day, I went and got drunk and dancing in casino Fiesta with my roommate. And this is the first time I got drunk till almost I was dead.... I even was trying to seduce one couple for a threesome..I remember that I liked them both and sent him a message... And I also was having fun riding that horse, as they had a country night on Wednesday.
today is the third day, I'm crying still.
gonna find a toy -boy soon...